2004 February

…”I” voluntarily “died” before being reborn, and the
crucifixion served as a model to understand my experience….

…It was
as if the personal “I” which is the blisspoint(s), which I have
called Krishna, simply vanished leaving only the impersonal THAT. The
I AM flame seemed to die. I knew this was temporary, but it was
nonetheless intense. It gave me some more insight into how ignorance
can actually overwhelm the I AM Self (if not Brahman itself), which
state I had somewhat forgotten.

…note that I was never saying I am enlightened and he isn’t.
If he chose to look from a non-reactive place, he would see I am being
inclusive. The I is the I in all. It would seem his true objection is to
enlightenment in general. But I have probably been unclear here. The crux
is that he was apparently seeing things from a non-unitive point of view,
which viewpoint I had also somewhat forgotten, until a few days ago. As I
said, I am most grateful to him for giving me the opportunity to
relearn that.

…Open-minded inquiry if it feels right to do so, yes.
In my opinion one will probably not find Brahman
without entertaining such open-mindedness
“beyond one’s current experience.”

…I would suspect everything is possible in Brahman. The possibility
has crossed my mind that ___ is at least as enlightened than I.
That would be fine with me — I am treating him as if he is, at any
rate. [He] is certainly at the very least an unwitting agent of
Brahman –he played a difficult part and taught me something
valuable. He plays his role and I play mine.

…again, anything is probably possible in Brahman, especially as there
is continual unfoldment and learning going on thereafter.

…I know Brahman more certainly than I know anything else in the world.
It is the one “thing” in which I can rest with utter certainty, at
least compared to anything else I previously “knew.” I never knew
what certainty was until I knew Brahman. The mind finds its utter and
total rest here. Again, not to say that inquiry and discovery do not
continue — just that Brahman is the self-evident groundstate. If You
know Brahman, You know what I am talking about. If You believe You do
not yet know it, there will always be doubt, about my experience as
about all of yours. I am aware this probably sounds unbelievably
arrogant, and I apologize for that, but I can find no better way to
say it. It is simple and self-evident. If I were deluded, that would
be OK too — always happy to learn more. :-)

…I believe that any resistance to anything is certainly going
to cause suffering.

…Any resistance to bliss is suffering. As long as one identifies with
that density of Ego, one is going to suffer. That’s all.

…I am not causing this suffering, and I am not responsible for it.
If this appears to be unsympathetic, I am sorry, but it is actually not.
I am deeply sympathetic, but I am no longer sustaining other
people’s pain in My body.

…Everyone’s enlightenment is a fact. It just depends on where they
choose to focus their attention and identify themselves, in my
opinion.

…You might wish to look a little deeper. There are
desires beneath desires.

…That is one way to approach the celestial however — by active
use of the Imagination, one can begin to relate with that form, and
then suddenly realize that form is indeed inhabited by the Divine,
far beyond what one was imagining. I might recommend this technique,
if You are drawn to approach God in that way.

…I believe You are perfectly unfolding the experiences
that are right for You in this moment, as are we all.

[Comment on: How can the delight of being be obliterated?]

It was rather what I would call Krishna which was obliterated — the
delight of Being, the I-Am bliss, not precisely the Being itself.

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…NPR (National Public Radio)
had just aired an amazing show interviewing Dr. Michael Maccoby, a
Harvard Med. School professor (I think) who has just written a book
called *The Productive Narcissist; the Promise and Peril of Visionary
Leadership,* and he made the interesting point that narcissism —
like other personality types (which unfortunately he did not go
into) — can be either positive or negative; it is essentially
neutral in itself. I have to say, the pattern (psychological history
and earmarks) he outlined fit my personality beautifully. I hope I
have solved many of the more egregious pitfalls available to the
narcissistic personality — including inability to listen to or
relate to others (well OK maybe still working on this one too *lol*),
tendency to form a cult around one’s own personal vision, belief in
one’s own superiority, etc. (I know I may sound as if I believe I am
superior a lot on here *lol* but actually I have a pretty fair
realization that I am no one particularly special, or rather, that
everyone is.)

One of the negative narcissistic aspects that I believe I am still
working on is a tendency to pigeonhole others — I think I have made
some fair headway here, but there is room for improvement. It is
tricky when I can feel them inside of me. How much of them do I
really know? The narcissist is also highly competitive, and doesn’t
wish to marry a mate that is less than perfect, or who appears to
reflect badly on himself. I think now this is another reason why it
was so good for me to stick with the mate I had chosen after an
apparently “perfect” one showed up later. In that my wife is
considerably less narcissistic than myself, she really balances me
nicely and has continually shown me other ways of approaching things.
As to some of the positive aspects of narcissism — the ability to
envision and inspire — I hope I am living up to those, but again I
am sure there is ample room for improvement.

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…It’s always just right now. We know
what we need to know when we need to know it.

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…The world is as we are.

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 …”When Love
knocks at the door, all the fears line up to be released.” During
this period of “rebellion” everything one cherished in the outer may
begin to fall away, until one is left utterly alone. This might be
termed the “Neti, neti” process. It can be very flat, very stark,
very Purgatorial or Hellish — an intense Dark Night of the Soul.

“When the Truth is found to be lies,
And all of the Joy within You dies …”

At that time one may experience intense impatience for “tedious”
dialectic and philosophical fine points. One is in excruciating PAIN,
dammit! It has also been called the Initiation of Crucifixion or of
Renunciation in some schools. It has been most interesting and
poignant to experience this Crucifixion or “adolescent rebellion”
again, this time from the viewpoint of the “parent.” *lol* I wish
there were some way to ease the birth, but I have not yet found it.
The only surcease from suffering lies in surrender, and one cannot
surrender until one is fully ripe.

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…it just reminded me
eerily of my own experience re MMY when I was in India in ’81. MMY
may not have “claimed” to be enlightened, but He did a very nice job
of representing the Inner Master I was then rebelling against. I am
curious — what exactly am I supposed to be gaining by my claim? I
will tell You what I have been gaining here from My side — a deeper
and deeper understanding of My Self and its various portions. So far
that has been priceless,…
…I tell You this — if I weren’t “enlightened,” I guarantee You
I wouldn’t be riding this particular tiger! *LOL* But truly, I
couldn’t care less what You think of “Me” or “My” consciousness,
except insofar as it might inspire You to look more closely at and
more highly value Your own, thus awakening Me even further within You
and You within Me. That is what it is all about.

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…My belief (and it is only a belief) is that while it
was apparently necessary for me, it may well not be necessary for
everyone to leave the TMO. What WAS important was the realization
that NONE of the TM7 would suffice anymore; having tried them all, I
was looking for “none of the above” *lol* and THAT may well be
necessary for discovering or enlivening “Brahman.”

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…I will gladly go on record again as
saying that for me at this point, there is no real difference
being “enlightened” or being in ignorance, except for the fact that I
am content where I am, wherever I am. Make of it what You will! *lol*

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…Actually, upon further reflection, I can’t really say that is
entirely true either — there are many parts of me that are
still “working” on themselves and learning to surrender to love and
harmonize with the contentment of the whole. So, Yes — if it gives
you bliss to focus on my ignorance, then I support that
wholeheartedly too. :-) It is all good.

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…I must confess I am most puzzled by MMY’s dissertation regarding the
efficacy of different forms of mantras. I was a householder and used
only the mantras MMY gave me and yet I still experienced the
stripping away of everything (“Dark Night of the Soul”) which he
ascribes only to the use of OM. Conversely, after awakening I found
myself using OM quite a bit and only increased my wealth and relative
bliss. Go figure! *lol*

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…three terrific books: Johan
Huizinga’s *Homo Ludens: A Study of the Play-Element in Culture,*
Alain Danielou’s *Gods of Love and Ecstasy: The Traditions of Shiva
and Dionysus,* and Denis De Rougemont’s *Love in the Western World,*
which goes into the love/bliss/freedom/eroticism vs.
fascism/control/armor polarities, and interestingly (If I remember
correctly) how Nazism subverted the potential of one such Dionysian
ecstasy-movement into its own political agenda of control, fear, etc.
It’s been a long time since I read them, so I may not remember them
perfectly *lol* but still I recommend them highly.

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You get any closer to that mirror,.. you’re gonna bump your
nose.

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[Comment on: seeing life as a mirror] …although, granted, it is kind of a fun-house mirror, with time-
space curvatures and ignorance-distortions that make seeing one’s
Self a whole lot more “interesting” *lol*

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…really good for understanding and appreciating many of the
deeper (Gnostic) layers of Christianity are the two books by Timothy
Freke and Peter Gandy: “The Jesus Mysteries: Was the Original ‘Jesus’
a Pagan God?” and “Jesus and the Lost Goddess.” Other interesting
forays are the books on the Magdalen, the Cathars and the Tarot by
Starbird, as well as “Holy Blood, Holy Grail” by Baigent and Leigh,
as well as some newer stuff on the same (and other) subjects by
Laurence Gardner.

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…it wasn’t until I
finally left not only TMO but also MMY and TM-7, and decided to forge
my own perfection, that I obtained the awakening I had craved. In
retrospect, I can definitely say that at least my own inner Master
required this, if not MMY. From this late distance now I strongly
suspect they were essentially one and the same all along.

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Yes, I too found channeling to be of paramount importance in my own
awakening, as it allowed me to “know by being” every aspect of
Creation or consciousness I desired. In this way was unfolded the
subtle darshan and healing and indeed consciousness of every Master
or Angel or God (or any other essence for that matter) I wished,
allowing the experience of the many flavors of unconditional Love and
Wisdom and Power and Bliss of “enlightenment” before I was ready to
call myself “enlightened.” Since we cannot (IMO) be “enlightened”
until we claim it, channeling is a great way out of the a posteriori
self-perpetuating identification with ignorance and back into our a
priori knowing, by allowing us to raise our vibration to identify
with those “lost” portions of our primordial Being, first on a
conditional trial basis and later by a simple realization of identity.

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 …I would certainly not say that such doubts etc. are “bad” or are to
be suppressed or denied — but neither would I say that simple
indulgence or identification with them is a rapid way to heal or
integrate them, either. When one has a choice, one can often
integrate these pained or pinched portions of ourselves most easily
by going to the bliss or harmonized portions and from here paying
unjudgemental attention to the portion in doubt or pain — listening
to it, feeling it, seeing it, and remembering that deepdown there is
only good. One can often accelerate this process by feeling where in
the body the doubt or painful thought appears to be emanating from,
and breathing easily into that area, or allowing that area to breathe
(so to speak). By suspending judgement — of ourselves and of others –
– we can more quickly allow those inward portions to be acknowledged
and healed and to flow back into our inner unity and harmony, and in
so doing the outer generally also “miraculously” changes.

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…why I said “when you have a choice” —
for at that point, you have the option of which element to identify
with. If there is no choice, there is no issue. If there is a choice,
you are already more conscious than the simple area or portion of
self which happens to be in pain. It is at that point you can choose
to heal it rather than be simply lost in it.

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Another way to look at this healing-technique might be as samyama on
the pain — one transcends, and then gently and innocently introduces
the issue one wishes to comprehend or integrate into Self. One might
call this technique too “divided mind” but I would really say it is
rather a technique of moving FROM division (pain, ignorance, etc.)
into Unity.

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…”one-line affirmation thinking” in and of itself may be practically
useless, as it does not take the time to integrate those portions of
oneself who are resisting the affirmation. Practically useless
— not entirely so, as every positive thought is certainly useful
in offsetting and beginning to erase the ingrained negativity of
countless samskaras *lol* (see Patanjali’s definition of Yoga),
but in and of itself a finely-crafted affirmation is only half of
what is required, IMO.

For much quicker results I have found it useful to
practice “rebirthing,” by introducing the wholly positive affirmation
that I most desire to be true, and then relaxing, easily scanning the
body-mind to apprehend the mental/emotional/physical responses to
that affirmation. Those responses are the key to our resistance to
the affirmation, and are automatic upholders of the status quo.
Neither denying them nor weakly indulging in them will accomplish the
synthesis quickly. Gentle and non-judgemental attention and breathing
into these responses (or allowing them to “breathe” and be
appreciated) is absolutely key to integrating them into synthesis,
and gently and quickly bringing that affirmation into reality. Unless
our body and mind agree with our spirit and will, “Heaven” remains
separate from “Earth.”

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…exercise due discrimination. In one sense you are already channeling
all the time — i.e. choosing (consciously or unconsciously) a specific focus
of consciousness and allowing that to transmit “through” or “for”
you. Channeling only brings the process into awareness and broadens
your options,  showing you that you have a HUGE choice as to which
aspect of the Self you can identify with or what level of vibration
you may enjoy. FOr the first time, you can actually “bootstrap” your
evolution by experiencing higher octaves of yourself firsthand —
learning how the Inner Master actually thinks and feels. You always
have full choice as to who and what you wish to resonate with.
Channeling is not unconscious; it is superconscious. But if you don’t
trust your own capacity to discriminate, I would say definitely do
not channel — and perhaps continue giving your power over to someone
other-than-you whom you DO trust? *lol* (Small joke.)

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The only Master who will live your perfect life is you.

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And until we drop our judgement on what IS, both in ourselves and in
our “outer” world, we cannot enter or remain in the “Kingdom of
Heaven.” How can we unite with the ALL when we see it as unworthy to
unite with? Boy, am I ever talking to mySelf here *lol*

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…* We are One … and Many … and One … *lol*

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 *lol* I do not know whether to be honored or insulted that I have
(apparently) been called a Ru! I haven’t heard that term applied to
me in over 20 years *lol* :-) Brings back old times.

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I am not particularly given to believing every stray prophecy that
comes along, personally. But then, I would not normally consider
myself a Ru either. *lol*

…I was not completely pleased with Clinton’s environmental record
either, but I did not find him consistently to come down against the
environment as George has. Your values may well differ, but for me,
the environment is or should always be our number one priority — and
I don’t feel that there has to be automatically a dichotomy of
environment vs. economy. Bush’s record of rescinding government
support and rebates etc. for alternative-energy research while
consistently supporting Oil and Nuclear Energy is IMO extremely short-
sighted, to put it politely.

…I admit Delhi is probably even worse than Texas when it comes to
air quality. I was last in Mexico in ’72 and it wasn’t too bad then;
I hear it has gotten much worse since then. Not sure how this
absolves us of our own responsibilities though since we are the
principal consumers — nor how this absolves us of our
responsibilities to speak out against all the environmental roll-
backs Bush’s administration has “achieved” in our own country.

…No, I am not sure at all we are not being “manipulated” to do that
very thing. [give Democrats a free pass] *lol*

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Any attempt to transcend and identify with a higher vibration IMO
cannot help but be an improvement on what most of us are normally
immersed in however *lol*

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It seems to boil down again and again even in this country to the
same old dialectic between the Left (socialist) and the Right
(fascist) — just once I would like to see something different *lol*

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…In fact its [the air in Maine] a little cleaner.

I guess you aren’t just east of all the antiquated electric producers
in the midwest, which have consistently been let off the hook to
modernize by Bush, and whose effluvium is bringing increased asthma
and acid rain even to previously-pristine areas here in Maine.

…This is the first I had heard of this [Bush support of conversion
 from combustion engines for automobiles to fuel cells]; it sounds promising
though I am reading that many feel this support is apparently letting auto
manufacturers off the hook (again) now for an uncertain future. This
seems to be an old pattern of Bush’s — consistently putting off
previously-legislated improvements again and again. However, at least
now he is giving lip service to new technology — that’s a step in
the right direction, for sure.

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…Actually, what I guess I am getting at
is, I don’t really enjoy political debate all that much; except for
my own personal perceptions and intuitions of the candidates — which
I can’t prove or verify to anyone else’s satisfaction — all I am
doing is just spouting second-hand information, just like everyone
else. I would just as soon stay clear of the whole thing *lol*
 
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…My THAT awakening came about as an
immediate result of a direct decision to determine my own perfection
or perfect state of consciousness, after realizing that none of the
witnessing/celestial/unity states of TM-7 “fit” anymore. Of course
many people had previously contributed a great deal to this
awakening, and from one angle it was indeed pure Grace, and the
overwhelming result was most certainly not at all what I anticipated
*lol* — but still it was or seemed to be the direct result of the
inquiry.

…It was my decision/realization that I MUST already be
 in my own perfection, even though I didn’t yet know or “perceive”
it, that led to the inquiry that led to the experience.
Or so it seemed. However, you could definitely say that the original
conceptual realization, which preceded the actual “experience” itself
was an act of Grace, and the rest was just the natural unfolding of
THAT, in which case we are in full agreement.

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…At least from where I stand, that settling for “comfort” would seem
to be why so many meditators have been satisfied for so very long
with less than full results. The actual process of waking up can be anything
but “comfortable” — albeit supremely satisfying. Rather, it may be
the seeds of discomfort, of desire, of cognitive dissonance that when
attended to will give you the solace you seek, if indeed you seek it.

…Your enlightenment or awakening is very
much a result of desire. As long as you desire other things more than
God (or THAT), you will obtain those other things, or THAT in the
form of those other things. That is Grace, and perfect, and natural.
When your desire is such that you drop everything else, and crave
and “demand” only God (in whatever form or manner you most need at
the moment), and are unwilling to live without Him or Her, then God
will drop everything else and take you to Himself and as Herself.
That too is Grace, and perfect, and natural. Some saints recommend
that if you pray for anything, pray for God to quicken your desire to
know and love God above all else. That yearning may bring you to your
goal.

But if we desire other things more, that is perfectly OK too, so long
as we know it. I think perhaps when we are really honest about our
current desires, we are quickly more at peace with ourselves and we
allow the desires to be fulfilled a lot more easily, since we are not
unconsciously resisting them or thinking we really want something
else. “What do I most want/need in THIS moment? I open myself to
receive that now.” (And then maybe see what resistances or objections
might come up to allowing that desire to be fulfilled, and take them
into account, reformulate the desire, and so on.)

…the actual awakening is so completely different than anything one had
experienced as a result of practice, that it was then very easy to
view the practice as having been more of a distraction than a help,
as it focussed our attention onto a path and (an eternally receding)
goal: an “idea” and a collection of experience-memories relating to
that idea, other than surrender into the actual utter perfection here
and now. (The degree to which you resist or gloss over that last
phrase is probably the degree to which you may be overlooking or
underestimating your own a priori enlightenment or awakening.)

…I wonder though if the stirring of that very irritation and fury is
not the root-resistance to awakening itSelf, and thus uncovering it
is a significant part of awakening, and when (by Grace) one suddenly
witnesses rather than identifies with that fury — realizes “this is
not-Me” — one is free to awaken?

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Does one have to adopt a Hindu name and a guru role to function as
Brahman or to be heard? I hope not. That’s been done to death. *lol*
That is the intent, alright — to enliven more of my Self — although
it is most fun of course when those portions of the Self who don’t
yet recognize THAT (or me) are actually open to be enlivened. I am
finding so many of these while I am on FFL that the temptation to
play and learn here is at the moment irresistible.

…Would you like to describe the “world of difference” between
“Brahman” and “waking state”? Because from where I stand,
there is no real difference at all between them. None at
all, really, except for the appreciation of the state itSelf. All the
other states of consciousness, from this perspective, are actually
false — mere bubbles of non-Self within the Self. Useful, though, in
that it sometimes helps to get a bit of distance from oneSelf to
actually appreciate it/me. *lol*

…Conceptual understanding and realization are intimately connected —
as is true for appreciation of any state of consciousness, but most
of all (I would say) for the unfoldment of Brahman, which really
isn’t even a state of consciousness per se at all, and actually
depends upon understanding for its enlivenment.

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…Though there is also a great deal of similarity between some of MMY’s
(and your) descriptions of C.C. and the awakening into “Brahman” —
e.g., the perfect satisfaction of the mind on discovering a perfect
ground-state or “baseline” quality, the “being hit by a bus” feeling
of it being not at all what one expected, but realizing that one had
been there all along, and so forth. The differences consist mainly in
its being arrived at through Understanding, rather than
simply “happening,” and also through having moved beyond the TM-7 and
surrendered all external criteria to “enlightenment,” and through the
actual feeling that the Witness has now disappeared entirely, into a
much “larger and simpler” THAT which in many ways is virtually
identical to the old waking state.

….The “and so forth” includes the realization that one now really IS
done forever with transcending; one identifies in fact completely
with THAT, and there is nothing more to do now but to “work” (if one
chooses) on refining the THIS: the physical body/mind, through prana,
loving attention, etc., and that as the THIS is transformed and
refined, one’s perception of the “outer” is also transformed and
refined, (since inner and outer are essentially the same) — much as
MMY defined the progression from CC into GC. Similarly, the
unfoldments of “Brahman” include — as a result of further inquiry
and discovery of subtle desires — apprehension of THAT as ME — as
various forms of the Personal God/dess, most delightfully (for me)
Krishna/Christ and Shiva. So were it not for the differences outlined
below, one could simply and comfortably describe “Brahman” as
the “true CC.”

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…One of the differences from the old waking state involves recognizing
that upon closer look one is “inside” everything, as everything
is “inside” one. Hence, one is often still working through
considerable amounts of ignorance, to recognize and enliven more and
more portions of oneself into love and bliss. *lol*

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 …I suppose this might be considered “dissociation” in psychological
circles, but (for me at least) it was a necessary step — exposure to
MMY and (a year later) to Robin Carlson showed me viscerally that
the “other’s” I AM was identical to mine, and this doubling of
consciousness revealed where I had still been subconsciously
identifying with an “I AM” which was intensely separate, small-minded
and petty. Seeing/feeling this “negative Ego” brought up *intense*
humiliation and guilt; within a few hours though the residue of this
old “I AM” was expelled as if from my abdomen by a kind of “psychic
vomiting” and I was freed up to move into “Brahman” or THAT not too
long afterwards.
The finality of THAT finally left real choice but to turn around and
begin the process of reintegration into THIS — the refinement of
body/mind (inner and outer worlds) through loving attention and
breath etc.

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…the “miraculous” happens
all the time, but (as far as I can see anyhow) only in response to a
genuinely spontaneous desire and the flow of Grace. One more reason
life is not replicable in the lab. *lol*

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…Although it is also true that what spontaneously “happens” to one or
through one in one state, can eventually become such a part of
oneSelf that one can essentially repeat it at will, if the witnesses
or recipients are open to the flow of Grace — at least for
some “miracles”. So I personally am not too quick to decide any
particular manifestation is a fraud, simply because I believe I am
not able to produce it at will myself.

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…I don’t think it [manifesting pudding, etc.] could be scientifically documented unless or
until the scientists themselves were completely open to that Grace,
and it still wouldn’t be replicable elsewhere by scientists not open
to said Grace, etc. etc. The whole world would have had to shift from
a Newtonian to a participatory observer/observed “quantum” reality,
which would pretty much negate the need for such
scientific “dispassionate” replication, perhaps, anyway. So I doubt
you would have to change your stance unless such a world were indeed
desirable to you beyond everything else. And for the time being,
living in a world like that — without much verification from one’s
co-inhabitants — would seem to be pretty narcissistic. *lol*

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[Comment on: Papaji “Directly looking at your own face is the only teaching.]
…It is funny how people can say this truth again and again and yet
people still just end up quoting and following the guy who says it.

[Comment on: Papaji’s saying that those who are enlightened, don’t claim it.]
…I notice that Papaji’s website shows a picture of him over the
scrawled words “I am FREE” — is this somehow different from
saying “I am enlightened”? Or did some well-meaning disciple put
these words in Papaji’s mouth after he died?

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…I think the world is pretty much what you make it, particularly as
you take care of the subconscious bits inside and stop manifesting
them through what is “out there.” I find it interesting that most of
the people who rail against false gurus are still doing the guru
thing themselves. If you decide that you are a true guru and true
gurus will be neglected, that is certainly what you will get. The
whole guru schtick feels pretty old to me, all around.

…Of course, that’s probably because I have not fully digested my own
unconscious (pretty old) guru schtick. :-) My apologies. *lol*

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An interesting view here of Gibson’s “The Passion” and
American “Christian” hypocrisy:

William Rivers Pitt | ‘The Passion’ of the Americans
http://www.truthout.org/docs_04/022704A.shtml

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 …the densely “negative” ego, which apprehends
itself as completely separate from everything else, and indulges in
comparison, victimization, blame, power/control issues and associated
pain and suffering — so long as it resists its intended function of
appreciating and serving the equanimity of the true Self in all.

If one were to call the true Self the Inner Christ, then
the “negative ego” could perhaps be called the “Inner anti-Christ”
which would appear to deny, reject or slay the Inner Christ by using
power, control, terror and death to maintain its “empire.”

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…the “negative” ego, which is addicted
to violence, control and pain until it surrenders into THAT.

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…One can also see the whole process in more positive terms, by
recalling that the power (navel) chakra must fully heal before one
can move permanently into intuitive and compassionate love (the
heart), and all of these attempts by the “negative” ego do or may
eventually result in re-empowerment, or reclaiming of one’s projected
power, so that one can finally forgive the ones on whom one projected
one’s power, as well as oneself, and re-cognize a primal perfection.

………………………………………

…isn’t the height of stupidity assuming that
*anyone* — even the lowest of the low — doesn’t have *something* of
value to show or teach us? That kind of arrogance would certainly
keep us far more isolated and ignorant than we are. Making a snap
judgement that a person is utterly worthless because of some intense
issues or imbalances would appear to be naive in the extreme.

………………………………………

…Again, this may be an instinctive reaction against undue or
unthinking guru-worship — but I don’t think anyone here is that
naive. Rather, most of us are pretty skilled at taking the best and
leaving the rest — just as if the person in question were a physics
teacher: Lack of personal integration — and misuse of charisma, or
criminality even — would not affect one’s genius in transmitting
physics; ditto for a transmitter of consciousness. I was not
personally particularly fond of Rajneesh’s flavor, but I will not
deny that he was in his own way a genius.

………………………………………

…I would again have to say we
are in no position to judge another’s enlightenment based on his
behavior, as it transcends any and all relative behavior. All we
could say with authority is, “I have read his works and they do not
resonate with me.” Making a broad judgement of one’s grasp of
*anything* — even consciousness — based solely on our estimation of
that person’s moral development would really be selling ourselves
short, and depriving ourselves of a lot of richness and wisdom the
world has to offer. Again, I am not recommending selling out to this
person — or to any person for that matter — just being open to what
in us that person will enliven: I guarantee they will always enliven
something, and teach us something, if we are open to it.
………………………………………

…You cannot evaluate its effect on anyone else’s with any degree
of certainty until you drop all judgement and thus are able to truly
“be” that other person.

………………………………………

…I did not pursue inner “wisdom” to avoid drug addiction and paranoia;
I pursued it to become free. If someone else — consciously free or not —
offers me a piece of the puzzle I don’t yet have, I will try to
accept it with gratitude and thereby learn more about the Self,
regardless of what mask God/dess is wearing at the time — be it a
rock, a drunk, Rick Archer, Tom Traynor, Tom Pall, easyone, Rajneesh,
or any other “Saint.” We are all many, and all one. I cannot remain
free by judging another for what I deem flaws — though clearsighted
recognition and appreciation of those flaws as they are reflected in
me is indeed essential: I appreciate their coming to my attention,
and I do my best to take care of those relative elements in mySelf
when they come up. Everyone is a mirror of the Self. You don’t
realize your own perfection by trying to comb the mirror; rather the
mirror is showing you your own tousled hair. Use the mirror; comb
your hair, and the other will then reflect your own perfection to
your satisfaction.

…Again, and I cannot strongly enough reiterate this — you will never
become a better person by judging another — only by recognizing them
as a mirror of your own perfection. Everyone is always showing us
exactly what we need to see, if we but have the wit to appreciate it.

………………………………………

Another thing to recall is that pure Grace or Shakti is essentially
untainted by the teacher who is its container or channel; one can
readily “catch” the awareness of the Self from anyone who knows the
Self, regardless of the degree of the channel’s personal or relative
integration — as (for example) when one may have learned to
transcend via direct “shaktipat” or Grace-transmission through a less-
than-perfect TM teacher…*lol* … This perfect purity IMO does NOT
necessarily hold true if one actually adopts that teacher as one’s
Guru or complete ideal; then one *may* be actually adopting something
of the relative quirks of the Guru along with the untrammeled Grace:
hence my caution about the Guru model for westerners.
………………………………………

…I am not a big fan of hypocrisy either, and so am doing my best to clean
up my own hypocrisy and to live as honest and integral a life as I
can. *lol* Isn’t it great that so many other high-profile people are
acting out our lessons for us? *lol* We can always learn from and use
such behavior as an example of what *not* to do. Still another
example of divine Grace!
………………………………………

…”Judge not lest ye be judged” and “Love thy
neighbor as thy Self”

………………………………………

…I am not saying not to take a good, long, close look at people,
particularly those we are considering working for or marrying (and a
Guru is something of both); we are not required to hang out with
everyone, or to adopt their life as our own. I am only saying that
awakening requires suspension of judgement — “Judge not lest ye be
judged” — and a willingness to comprehend that the everyone is a
mirror of the Self — “Love thy neighbor as thy Self,” and “Let he
who is without sin cast the first stone,” and “First take the log out
of your own eye and then you will see more clearly to take the mote
out of your neighbor’s.” There is a practical reason for all this:
Everything we say about another, we are truly saying about our Self.
At heart, everyone is but a mirror for everyone else. If we really
desire awakening and we don’t like what we see in the mirror, cursing
the mirror is of less use than learning from it and changing
ourselves accordingly.

………………………………………

…yet another reason to cut our poor teachers some slack. *lol*
If we judge them harshly, we judge ourselves harshly, and really no
one benefits. We are all doing the best we can.

………………………………………

…it certainly may behoove you to scope out and carefully select
anyone you plan to spend (much of) your life with. (Though Grace may
well still provide you with someone(s) completely different than you
had planned.) This careful selection will not insulate you from the
(sometimes shockingly) unexpected, however, particularly if your goal
is to further awaken. The ego tries and tries to protect itself from
the unexpected by its attempts at control and all the rest of its
games, but so long as that ego is coddled, it thinks it really is in
control and we cannot truly awaken further. One funny thing about the
universe is, it seems that any and all expectations are eventually
either surrendered to God (divine flow, the true guru), or clung to
in pain, suffering and ignorance. In my experience anyhow at some
point the outer teacher (the world, etc.) is almost certainly going
to let you down, if only to wean you from reliance on the outer and
show you where your true guru resides. But I would not wish to make
this a hard and fast rule either, of course. Anything can happen —
and probably will, sooner or later.

 

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